So I dropped off the face of the earth again for a while, huh? Sorry about that. It seems to happen more often than I’d like. Whilst I’m still trying not to beat myself up about it I thought I’d catch you up on what I’ve been doing and share some exciting (but scary) news at the same time.
What have I actually been doing in the past few weeks?
So, I went to see the Arctic Monkeys at the O2 and it was honestly one of the greatest nights of my life. I’ve been a fan since just before the AM era and now I’ve finally had the chance to see them live, I feel like my life is complete. I love the new album. I could have cried all the way through Cornerstone but don’t worry, I didn’t embarrass myself that much.
Also, it’s worth nothing that I’ve never come across a skinhead that’s ticked all my boxes, but Alex Turner is in a different league to any other member of the male species. He’ll forever be the love of my life. Never experienced post concert blues like it – the fear that I may never get to see him again was a lot to process. Fingers crossed the next album doesn’t take 6 years.
Next up in the tragedy that is my life – I’ve been told by the hospital that they’re gonna have to cut my gums back to make room for my wisdom teeth which have been giving me serious trouble for over a year. Turns out they can’t remove them because the nerve runs right through the teeth and that could potentially a) permanently damage the sensation in my mouth/jaw and b) hurt like a bitch. So yeah, I’m not feeling good about that.
I’m going back to reiki therapy next week which is such a relief. Everyone’s entitled to their own opinions but it’s genuinely helped me so much with my inner peace and overcoming my trauma. Unlikely, but if anyone wants to hear about my healing journey let me know and I’ll be sure to write something about it.
I’ve also been writing a fictional novel for the past few months. I know. It’s a modern, young adult story; the idea came to me in a dream about a year ago. The truth is I’m insanely proud of everything I’ve written so far. Even if I never get published, I’ll be eternally happy with the characters and universe I’ve created. It’s always been my dream. Without giving too much away – if anyone is interested in being a test reader for me I’d love to hear from you!
Now, here comes this final big announcement I promised. I’ve decided to do something ridiculously ambitious which I’m currently working my arse off for. Is it too late to change my mind? On Monday, I’m launching a ‘Back To Uni Week’ on this blog. Yeah, as Mill quite perfectly said I’m a ‘crazy bitch’.
I’ll being posting Monday to Saturday, to commemorate the start of my third and final year in university education. It’s one hell of a challenge and I’m not entirely sure I’ll even pull it off but that’s why I’ve done it – to push myself out of my comfort zone.
For the past few weeks I’ve felt indifferent towards my blog. It’s not that I’ve fallen out of love with blogging at all. It’s that all the hard work I put in never seems to pay off. I spend so long battling with my perfectionism, creating something I’m insanely proud of for almost zero response.
Luckily, I’ve met some wonderful blogging girls in the past few weeks through twitter who motivate me to work hard on everything again. Every time I think about packing it all in and destroying all evidence of my online presence – I meet someone new who motivates me to write again and for that I’m so thankful.
So be sure to check in at ten on Monday morning and every day after that for six days of university related content.
As a final note: With my novel to work on, a dissertation to start and so much crap going on outside of that, there is no way I can guarantee a solid two posts a week from here until I graduate. But I’m still so in love with creating content that both betters me and engages an audience – so I’ll never fully be gone. Don’t give up on me, please.