There’s a lot of pressure for university to be the best days of your life. And have they been mine? God I hope not.
As I jump back into university head first, with absolutely no idea what I’m supposed to be doing from one day to the next, I cannot help but wonder whether I’ve had the best time possible in education. As I previously said in this post, there’s a feeling I just can’t ignore, a feeling of ‘oh, I thought it’d be somewhat more than this’. And maybe that’s my fault – maybe my choices made university a little underwhelming. But maybe, just maybe, our expectations for univeristy are just too high?
It’s no secret that my anxiety has held me back before and although now I’m less likely to let it control me, when it all began I was terrified. I think at the beginning of first year, I forced myself on nights out quite a bit but I didn’t always feel better for it. I’ve spoken before of my dislike for clubbing in this post – but in the beginning I felt like there was so much pressure to go out. In all honesty, there were a few good nights but at the same time, some left me awfully not in control. So, if I’d have been out more, would I now think that university was less of a disappointment? I don’t think so.
Maybe I should have joined a society? Maybe I should have bonded with my course mates more? Maybe I should have spent more Saturdays nights drinking vodka in clubs instead of tea in bed? But that’s not me. I’ve realise that the traditional “university experience” isn’t designed for someone like me.
For me, it’s been a rollercoaster. I’ve had some great times and some of the worst too. But here’s what I can tell you for sure. University is what you make it.
Contrary to popular belief, going to university does not instantly change your life. It will not change you as a person unless you want it to. It won’t solve all of your problems unless you actively seek the solutions. It won’t find you friends and hobbies and fix any insecurities you have.
Nethertheless, I think I’ve made the best of my university experience as I possibly could. I don’t think that being a more fun (less boring) person, someone who actually went out all the time would have changed my perspective at all really. Though I am often stressed and panicked about my assignments – I think it’s so common now to be underwhelmed by the student life.
I went to university to get an education, first and foremost. Over the past two years, I’ve worked my arse off and it has nearly always payed off and that for me is the greatest satisfaction I’ve had. I can’t deny that whilst some of my lectures have been dreadful, I have also learnt so much about my subject and that’s incredibly important to me. Working hard has been a huge part of my experience.
As a commuter who doesn’t at all mind commuting – I’ve always tried to make plans before and after uni with my friends. I’m now having regular blog photoshoots with Millie too (hence the sudden appreance of better pictures) – which makes the journey more worthwhile. I’m planning to take my laptop and work more in Canterbury as supposed to heading straight home after class. A big part of getting the most out of university – is having other things to do whilst I’m there.
So no matter what happens in this final year, even if it’s not the most fulfilling time of my life, I’m determined just to make it worthwhile. And I’m coming away with incredible friends, life lessons I couldn’t have prepared myself for and I’ve learned so much about myself. I’ve made university into something great – just not revolutionary and life-changing like we’re all lead to believe it has to be.
If you’ve just started or are currently at university – don’t put too much pressure on yourself to make university something it’s really not. Have fun, work hard, learn and remember to make it whatever you want it to be.
So here we are! We made it, we smashed every day of #BackToUniWeek without fail! Go me. I hope you enjoyed this series, let me know if you did. If you’re at uni now – good luck. If you’re thinking about it – I hope I haven’t put you off.
I am so proud of myself for the past week’s work but now I’m just happy to be back to posting two days a week for a while. See you soon!